well...well...well...went for the spook show...had a great time there...no really actually...when we need to decide on what to have for dinner...in then end we just went off...the 'we' is me, pengrend, tony, melvin(sec2) and maureen(sec2)...yea...left yingen, hiang suan, germaine, delia, valerie and lisa at suntec..yeea..and i know that germ and hs not very happy that we just left like this..but...all i can say is sorry...you guys will taking too long to decide...by the time i reached home is already 7.30...i need to be home by 8...
hmm...during the show...i thought we were all separated...until i know that they were just beside all of us...we sat in this manner if i'm not wrong...from left to right...pengrend, me, tony, melvin, maureen, yingen, haing suan, hmm...then i not very sure already...think its lisa, valerie, germaine then delia? its too dark...cant see the faces clearly...its not as scary as it seems it is...5 segments...lasted for abt an hour 30 mins? make fun of pengrend and his phone...haha! better not say... ;)
after everything...there are prayers and the very last part...those that want...can go forward, all the way infront...infront of the stage...in the end...out of all of us...only i went...pengrend accompanied me though...cause he knows that i dont dare to go down alone all by myself...haha! He prayed for me and i'm really grateful for it...thanks alot... after that...those that went forawrd...went to another room at the back stage...its called the 'consolidation room' , once again...he went with me...met this lady...her name is june...reminds me of ms yeo! gosh! okok...she's a consolidator...till now, i'm still not sure what are they for...haha! think they are there to help us? well...then sign up with fcbc...that's the church my sis attend too...the show is by fcbc by the way...then...yea...suppose to give number but i gave my hp number instead after june told me that she will be calling me...haha! dont wanna get myself into too much trouble...i wanna convert to a christian...i can say i'm already half a christian though i doubt there's such a thing...well...hmmm...i wonder too... she prayed for me too...felt sooo blessed yesterday...haha!
well...get to know many new things abt the religion- christian...though i still kinda doubt his existence...
i hope that i can convert totally and pengrend(again) is trying veyr hard to help...but...due to parent's constraint...i cant...well...that's life...its not fair...but...do i have a say abt that? the only person in my family that wont go agianst me converting will be my 2nd sis...cause she converted a few years back...i'm just repeating history...i cant let my parents know...okok...just my mum...i know she will kill me if she knows abt this...yea...she's a buddhist...i grew up as one but yea...i wanna change now...i am no longer the baby girl they know...ik grew up long ago...they always say that i'm too young to make my own deicsion but...when they need me to do something...they will say that i have already grew up...why cant i even do such stuffs? duh..
-.-''' they are just contridicting...okok...maybe i just need to give them more time? botht june and pengrend asked me...'what religion i consider myslef as?' I feel like telling them...christian...but...can i? yes...i can...nobody can stop me...but...with my 3rd sis and my mum around...its like a hurdle i'm trying to get across...sometimes i couldn't fathom what are they thinking...my 3rd sis wanna be catholic...did she say anything abt herslef? but...when i told her...all i recieved is a cold glare from her and scolding...well...family matters = sensitive matters...that's life...its never fair...


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